Scribble Something

{6th August 2014}
I haven't been writing much lately. I don't think it was writer's block, I think it was just me being too lazy to think about something to write. I doubt that I will ever write a book, I just don't have the discipline, a collection of poems maybe. After at least a year of no new material, I finally wrote a poem. Like most of my poems, it comes off as more of a song, which like most of my poems, it is. I used to compile all my writing (especially my poems) in this notebook.

Poetic Musings, by Rachel Wong Yen Yi.

But at one point I was writing a lot, almost two poems everyday, so I couldn't be bothered to update it, so now I just type them out and save them online. Which is easier, and dare I say it, better.

Anyway, about this poem. It's called "Red Glass", and I will most likely never share it, unless it's anonymously, because it's very personal and has quite its fair share of profanity in it. It's also something that I've been meaning to write for some time, but kept putting off because it meant that I would have to relive some of my worst memories. But I'm really glad that I have so many outlets to express myself, namely, writing and music. I am grateful that I can express myself both with words and without.

Previously, I wrote a lot of poems about love, which is idiotic considering how I have zero experience in the subject. Well I guess it's not love so much as crushes. But I'm trying to change that. So now I'm dabbling in writing poems about myself. I have a couple of articles that I want to write and publish here, and maybe in Rookie if the theme fits. I'm really irritated with the future right now.

I've been watching quite a few TV shows, which is not good. But I've been watching less films, so a healthy balance I guess? I'm currently creating a playlist that I'm going to upload to 8tracks eventually. I deleted a lot of my Tumblr blogs, there are way too many of them. And all my movie reviews are either on this Tumblr page or on Letterboxd. Feel free to visit both. Instead of using my time to study, I'm using it to catch up on my reading. I am a gone case, what to do.